okies today after having dr tim murray lesson i felt super duperly stupid cos it seems like i dunno much .. really i felt so dumb fer da first time in year 3 .. i panic i really do cos i think there is a calling .. telling me ''litang its time to study ! no more shopping and fooling around !'' gosh i am scared really i think i need to start studying on weekends since no bf now got even more time for myself wahahahahahas okies i know veri lame ..

a fren messaged me just now telling me he is sorry cos he feels he has done many things to hurt me .. i freak out cos he say he is crying .. no its not nicholas in case you thought it is .. if its him i will feel bad and sad cos i think i hurt him more than he hurt me okies but this is not da point .. anyway that fren apologize to me and i told him god created us in such a way that we re imperfect people .. each of us has our own flaws and why not use your postive points to make da best out of it rites ? .. am i wrong to say that hahas .. i dunno maybe i make him feel worst ..

anyway to those who wants to ask me why i can get over nicholas so fast or whatever blah blah blah .. i can only say dun judge me from da outside think whatever you want .. da problem is those who ask me this qs re those who re not there when i am nt feeling okies at all .. da worst is when a close fren of mine says i look so normal like nothing has happen .. maybe i always put up a brave front in front of ppl but maybe thats me .. i dun like to show out da emo side of me .. i dun want to be a wet blanket to frens around me really i rather put up a brave front than to show out my feelings .. i am not a direct person i am always indirect in expressing my feelings on those relationship stuffs .. i guess only really true frens know how i feel and thats enough i appreciate that =)

trust me .. you re a nicee person that people yet to discover =)