as i look through the pictures in my friendster and those in my desktop .. i miss the days when i hang out with my friends to chat and to talk anything under the sun .. but those days seems to vanish .. there is no more any such hangouts with them .. yet friends who aren't that close have always include me into their hangouts .. isn't this contradicting .. i am not refering to any particular group of friends but in general friends that i considered close to my heart .. maybe it's me who have changed or i have drift away from them .. sometimes i wonder we re all graduating .. we will be going to different paths in life .. will things ever be the same again?

if one day i just need a friend to talk to or share my problems with .. will there be anyone willing to lend me their listening ear or shoulder to lean on? .. and yes i ask myself do i actually have true friends that exist in my life? .. most people are very superficial .. they may say ''don't worry i will always be there for you'', '' i will support whatever decisions you make'' but do they mean it when they say it ..

it hurts when friends become strangers to you .. i guess this is just part and parcel of life .. your life can never always be like a fairytale - ''live happily ever after'' ..

okies let me post something happy hahas .. yesterday went to eat dinner with mum and sister to have an advance birthday celebration for my sister .. we ate @ pariss international seafood buffet @ taka .. the variety there is so little and the quality of the food isn't up to standard .. i still prefer the outlet @ marina square but its under renovation .. we took many pics and there is one photo of my mum with choclate smeared onto her mouth which made my sister and i laugh our heads off ! its been a long time we sit together as a family to eat and laugh .. yeahs i enjoyed yesterday dinner :)


mixed feelings.