boo these 2 days slept for only 6 hours but miraculously i am not tired hahas cos' i am like a pig i have to sleep for at least 10 hours a day .. yesterday i spent the whole day outside, it's really a good distraction therapy hees cos' at least i won't think too much and cry like one kuku .. met ting for dinner at pizza hut then all of the sudden got the urge to sing hahas so we went kbox at clementi sing from 7 till 1115 WOOHHOOOOS so shiok ! BUT also had a good time crying whenever i sing emo songs hahas while ting entertaining herself like some siaos char bo =X ..

throughout the day i switched off my phone so i will not keep looking at it hoping there will be a sms from him .. guess i will just do that for the rest of the days, it really works (:

after kbox off we go to west coast, found a good spot to sit down and talk by the sea .. hahas didnt cry much this time round though everytime i talk to ting about the happy times we had in taipei, tioman, ipoh, underwater world and at sentosa, tears just welled up in my eyes holding back and fighting back my tears .. i tell myself i cannot cry =( okies side track a little bit, yesterday night got this pervert masturbating behind us EEEEEWWWWW damn disgusting, a little bit scared he will attack us from behind =P but went aliff came he immediately left PHEW ..

yeahs didnt expect him to message me and call me to ask where am i, well i should be contented that at least he cares but i know it's a friend to friend care .. but i told ting i was happy hahas sound so stupid =X

aliff drove us to this ''mama'' coffee shop along harbour front road and we drank teh tarik yummy =P we chatted for hours then decided to head back to mac cos' ting hungry mahs PIG ! she eat and eat non stop hahas .. yesterday we went pizza hut she ate at least 3 to 4 slices of pizza, i cant even finish 1 slice though i am hungry but no appetite .. my appetite decrease by a lot and really a lot nowadays this is a good time to JIAN FEI ! wahahahahahas ..

before heading to my house, i chatted with ting about her r/s and i chatted mine .. i felt guilty cos' when i heard that ting can ''hong'' ashraf but i never do so and she can call ashraf every night but i always complain about calling him cos' if he calls me i can lie on my bed comfortably instead of sitting at the living room sofa .. yeahs i felt i didnt do much about this but well i told myself if i ever have a bf again i will not let these happen i will be more initiative and i know guys need to be pampered at times too (:

My to do list for this week, it's packed and i am happy with it (: -

Today- going out later to accompany aliff to town and queensway to buy his things, go with ting to bukit merah to collect her salary, head to granny house to collect yiping pressie cos' cousin left it there, go to chinatown to buy some things ..

Wednesday: slack at home first then at 5pm meet ting for dinner at bukit batok, accompany her till she starts work (:

Thursday: going out with ting and ping to west mall cos ting need to work so cant go out to somewhere further ..

Friday: hopefully fique, saab, maesh are willing to stay overnight at the airport so that we can send ting and ashraf off .. and i didnt want to be at home (:

Saturday: meeting him cos i initiated it, just enjoy my day cos' it may be the last meet up hahas .. giving back things to him like his vcd, luggage key, and his basketball jersey .. give him back everything once and for all cos ' at least it doesnt give myself a reason to want to meet him again .. unless he initiated it .. i tell myself i have to smile even if i feel like crying .. to show him i am strong even when i am not (: i didnt want to cry cos' it make me sound like some despo wanting him back again .. i have thought it thru' just let nature takes it's course i cant force things that are not meant to be mine, to be mine ..

Sunday: most probably going queensway to buy a pair black color track shoes for work and maybe walking around alone to waste time off

Monday start work ! +_+ so dreaded hahahahahas (:

oh yeahs i just got to know that maesh, ashraf, fique and saab rode their motorbike and trying to find where am i on sunday hahas cos' i didnt went home straight from his house i went to somewhere near my house wanting to cool down but i didnt tell ting where i go and she was so worried, ting told them to find me =X hahas super duper touched really (: these are really true friends hees ..

guess you have move on from this pain quite fast, while i remain stasis there, maybe just one fine day my heart is willing to let go and move on but when will that day arrive?