went back to the place where i used to go to clear my thoughts, this time i tell myself let god decide where he wanna bring me to, its very tiring and hurting to pick up broken pieces all by myself, it's even worst when you are not appreciated by the things you do and trying to change to be a better person yet they don't see it .. i used to go against nature and thinks that i can change everything to be better one but guess i have been decieving myself cos' i am not happy at all by doing all these .. yet it leads to double the trouble .. hurting words comes out from their mouth causing more pain in me .. sometimes i wish i can just disappear into thin air so i don't have to pick up all these broken pieces alone .. it takes two hands to clap, when the other person doesnt clap with you, things won't work out .. yes everyone of us have some ego inside us but don't ever let it overtake your mind and heart cos it can rip beautiful things apart .. i questioned myself am i ever happy or just because i am blinded by one word - love .. i have yet to seek for the answer but hopefully i am really happy with what i have am now ..

i know it's never good to compare cos' each of us are special we have our weaknesses but is the word sorry so difficult for them to say? is admitting your fault when it is instead of pushing the blame to others so difficult to do? why other ppl can do it but some of us cant? that's weird ..

just some random thoughts (: